Deja Vu - Eminem (埃米纳姆)

Body body

DMC we have a mid-thirties male found down unresponsive

Possible overdose substance unknown

Pulse is 60 and thready respiration's eight

He's intubated and we're bagging him now

Uh BP 90 over palp patient is cool pale and diaphoretic

Has aspirated uh GSC is 3

Will update en route ETA ten minutes

As I DJ

Fall deeper into a manic state

I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the ** addict trait

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate

Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste

Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

To a harder prescription ** called Valium like yeah that's great

I go to just take one and I end up like having eight

Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate

Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

And you'd think that with all I have at stake

Look at my daughter's face

Mommy something is wrong with Dad I think

He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me

Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me

And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos

And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat

Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu

I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can't and I won't say I try but I know that's a lie

'Cause I don't and why I just don't know

Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer

That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a f**kin' year

And that fker still talks to me he's all I can f**king hear

Marshall come on we'll watch the game

It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers

And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed

For half of the time

Who's the mastermind behind that little line

With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind

To have another half a glass of wine sounds asinine

Yeah I know but I never had no problem with alcohol

Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm 'bout to fall

I miss the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball

Sh*t must've knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all

Wow what the f**k happened last night where am I

Man f**k am I hungover and goddamn I

Got a headache sh*t half a Vicodin why can't I

All systems ready for take off please stand by

Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu

I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can't and I won't say I try but I know that's a lie

'Cause I don't and why I just don't know

So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ah

Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high

Now I need it just not to feel sick yeah I'm gettin' by

Wouldn't even be taking this sh*t if DeShaun didn't die

Oh yeah there's an excuse you lose Proof so you use

There's new rules it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through

It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze

What else is new f**k it what would Elvis do in your shoes

Now here I am three months later full-blown relapse

Just get high until the kids get home from school homes relax

And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac

I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps

Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see

That's an Ambien each nap how many Valium Three

And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep

Okay so now ya see the reason how come he

Has taken four years to just put out an album B

See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath

'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing

It was bologna was it the methadone ya think

Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos

Your VCR tape cases with your Ambien CR

Great places to hide 'em ain't it

So you can lie to Hailie

I'm going beddy-bye Whitney baby good night Alaina

Go in the room and shut the bedroom door

And wake up in an ambulance

They said they found me on the bathroom floor damn

Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu

I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can't and I won't say I try but I know that's a lie

'Cause I don't and why I just don't know