must one person's triumph be another's humiliation

of course

aye, another day waiting for death

every day that i waste on my list of regrets

so i tell myself, it’s okay, day after next

we’ll make all these arrangements to change

you can better yourself”

i know i’m wasting my breath as i inhale

i know i’m escaping my death as i inhale, ah

i can’t recall why i’m suffocating

my lungs are failing

step into the mind of a cut-throat

empty streets, cold weather, all alone

blackness, grey air, just snow

feelings low, being followed by crows

call list overflowed with hot lines

** help, mental, suicide

feel tired, feel dried and you wanna die

pride fried, closed eyes and you start to cry

swear i spent a lifetime trying to get it right

still isolated, still out of sight

keep my dreads swinging like they in a fight

i just wanna kill everyone in sight

take the money, take the *es, take the **s, take the gold

baby, let me decompose

never names said more shade spit

i'ma see you one day, that’s a promise